“When we expand our thinking and our beliefs, our love flows freely. When we contract, we shut ourselves off.” Louise L. Hay from The Power is Within You

I am currently living in Bali and this is what I feel like I am doing, expanding my thinking and beliefs. My fiancé and I brought about 50 books with us and bought another 15! :) We are committed to opening our minds and growing!!

I know when I am not being open, not living from that Higher Self. I don’t feel free to choose, I feel trapped and constricted. It is so beautiful to actually feel myself shutting off. II go inside to hide, to protect, to contract. And, it doesn’t feel very good.

I have this thing with conflict and being too nice and wanting to please people. And, then I often times don’t please people and then feel guilty because I didn’t do it good enough, when really my Higher Self isn’t interested in pleasing other people. It is interested in me being fully expressed, fully alive and fully me.

And, for me this looks like expanding to a place where I am willing to piss people off! That isn’t of course my intention but the reality is everyone isn’t going to like me, agree with me, or think I am a cool chick! And, to be ok with that, and still move forward on my journey with full expression, passion, and fire is when I feel the love flowing from me freely. I feel alive. There is no constriction. It is a place of God, Truth and Beauty! :)

What about you do you notice a time when you feel alive and expanding and experiencing the love flowing freely? And what about times when you feel stressed, contracted and restricted? We all can be more mindful of our thoughts and emotions and choose love over fear in any moment. My intention is to choose love and growth! :) 

A Glimpse of My Goddess Life

MIND – The fitness show has been on my mind… ! And, although I am training for a fitness show and there are certain standards, like the hottest body ever :), I feel really great about my process… I will not deny that I do yes want to create My hottest body and most radiant self. I am not that interested in what the judges/other people think though. It is more for me and my own process! It is actually funny even to think that it is essentially a beauty contest. Who is the fittest and most beautiful? And, whoever is according to the judges wins! :) Funny. The reason that I am doing it is because I love to have training goals, I am fascinated by my body and what is possible in it, and it is also an edge for me to fully own my sexy, hot, beautiful body! :) I want to keep reminding myself of the reasons I am doing it. It isn’t to be a fitness competitor per se.. It is more to own my goddess, to rock it, to embody confidence, strength and beauty!! It is for my own inner game mastery! :)

Meditation 5:15-615

10 minutes of listening to my recording of affirmations

BODY – I woke up this morning happy to be alive. What an amazing feeling to feel my body and to be conscious of getting out of the bed and putting my incredible feet on the floor and saying, “thank you”. There is so much for me to enjoy about my body. And, although I am not at my ideal weight, or ideal size, or ideal this that or the other. It is still so much fun to enjoy it now.

I really enjoy my body when I am consciously moving it, that is why Yoga is so amazing for me. And, I feel really powerful and intense and passionate when I am running/sprinting or doing some sort of intense workout. I love the yin & yang of my body practice!! I have been eating more cheese than I have in like 4 years and back in the day I didn’t have anything sweet around the house otherwise I might be tempted to eat the whole box/bag/jar. :) So, I am loving this moderation thing of having chocolate almost everyday. I get just as excited about green juice as I do about chocolate. It is a beautiful thing! :)

Diet –

6:30 detox drink

8:30 beet, carrot, ginger, celery juice & papaya and pineapple

10:15 herbed potatoes with a ½ mushroom & spinach omelet

11:15 dark chocolate

1:00 Side Salad with vinagrette dressing & coconut water

2:15 Quinoa with braggs

4:15 dark chocolate with papaya

5:30 Detox drink, miso soup and

Workout – 80 minutes of Yoga (Shiva Rea audio)

Massage – 3 pm – 1 hr (If you have noticed I love love massages :) )

SPIRIT

My intention/mantra for the day – Perfection. I am perfect. I only see perfection.

I am trusting myself and my path more and more everyday. It is quite amazing. I am seeing how everything is God, Spirit, Intelligence and the only thing that separates us from God, and each other is our beliefs. It is a beautiful process of unfolding and uncovering what is not truth! Seeing that everything is and can be sacred! That I can talk about God and Sex in the same sentence and touch the Divine in both! :)

FUN/CREATIVITY – Started some of my positive aspects journal :) I also would really like to get more into “my look”. I have always been interested in looking good, but would always buy an Oprah or Fitness magazine over a fashion magazine. It might be a fun project and a way to express more creativity in what I wear and how I show up in the world! :)

MY FAVORITE BLISSFUL MOMENTS – Shivansana meditation outside in the jungle, reading Paulo Coelho, typing this blog past (I really enjoy my daily process), laughing with Brian, watching Because I said So. It was cute, I hart movies! :)

APPRECIATION FOR THE GOOD, GREAT & BEAUTIFUL – I appreciate this computer, I appreciate my blog, I am grateful for my life, I appreciate all of me, I appreciate good clean water, I appreciate my favorite fruit, papaya, well for right now anyways! :) I appreciate a clean & organized house, I appreciate My path to live My life!!

FINAL THOUGHTS OF THE DAY – Good Night!