“An artist must have downtime, time to do nothing. Defending our right to such time takes courage, conviction, and resiliency. Such time, space and quite will strike our family and friends as a withdrawal from them. IT IS! For an artist, withdrawal is necessary. Without it, the artist in us feels vexed, angry out of sorts. If such deprivation continues, our artist becomes sullen, depressed, hostile.” Julia Cameron

You may have read that and thought that is nice, but I am not an artist. And, I have thought that many times, oh I am not an artist, that is for those really eccentric, creative geniuses!! Right!! Well, guess what you are a creative genius and so am I.

Say it to yourself, “I am an artist! I am an artist!” :) And, listen for the inner critic to say, Oh no your not, have you seen how you draw! :) Fun Fun!

Well the truth of it is that you are the artist of your life. Maybe you can’t paint, or sing, or dance, or sculpt or write poetry, or do whatever you think an artist does…who cares. You can bring your artistry into your life, into every aspect of your life. So, that when you look at your life you feel great. You feel like it is your masterpiece. It is my personal opinion but I think that greatest masterpiece we could ever create is our LIFE!

So, now that we have established we are all artists! We now need to take a look at this quote. Downtime, solitude…How much of that do you give yourself? I love time to myself. I am never bored with myself. I am a very creative person and I can always come up with something creative to do with my time. And often times I feel like withdrawing from the world. And, my inner critic comes in and says…”stop being so selfish, you need to be in the world, you are running away…” And, what I have to say is “ YES I am being selfish for great reasons, the more I take care of me that more I can give, and yes, I do need to be in the world and damn right I am running away to my safe haven called my deeper and higher SELF.” You go girl! :)

So, remember to take time out for your artist. Give her or him the time to relax, unwind, be alone, and do nothing! And, when you start to feel yourself getting irritated and our of sorts. Ask yourself if you need some good ole withdrawal time. And, if the answer is YES, CREATE IT NOW! :)

Mind – Transformation is on my Mind. I was reading Science of Mind this morning and it is all about changing your thoughts, change your life. I believe this. I can feel it when I change my thoughts, I can feel my life shifting. My interest is in how we can create a happy, optimistic, peaceful mind everyday of our lives!?! Is it possible? I know that it is, I have read about people who are like this and the author of Science of Mind clearly lived this way! What does it take to fully transform our consciousness so that we live from a happy place no matter what!?!

I feel like I am genuinely a happy person. And, I have to say being here in Bali, only reading and writing, meditating and being with my thoughts more than I would be if I was being stimulated all the time with tv/internet/social stuff, I can see that there is some work to be done in this beautiful mind to make it even more beautiful and healthy! :)

Meditation

Holosync 4:45-5:45

Destiny 9:00-9:30

Body – I feel like I am getting close to my period. I think probably in a week although it seems like she is just around the corner. There are clearly different hormones that are flowing through my body right before. I am just not as chipper! :) I tend to feel heavy in my body and also in my mind. It is wonderful to be aware of it and not allow it to run the show!!

Diet

6:00 Detox drink and Jasmine tea

8:00 Bowl of Papaya

9:30 Grilled Veggie Salad

11:00 Coconut water & Dark chocolate

2:00 Buckwheat pancakes and compote

5:00 16 oz green juice

Workout – 70 minutes of Yoga am workout/ afternoon workout : Dancing 20 minutes!

Massage - 60 minute feet, back, neck, head

Spirit

My intention/mantra for the day – ALLOW! I allow life to flow through me! I allow and go with my flow.

As Serendipity would have it I was thinking about my creative expression and what the best way for me to authentically express it! :) And, I was called to the bookshelves and The Artist’s Way caught my eye. How perfect. I did the whole 12 week course a couple of years ago, you can never have enough creativity in your life…always room for more! :) Thank you Spirit for guiding me!

Fun/Creativity – This part got lost the last few days!?! :) I think unconsciously I wasn’t having fun or being creative. I actually feel like I have a story about what this has to look like… It needs to be a big deal. But, it can be something simple like I wrote this blog post today yea for creativity. I did something new and different, I ate with my left hand, I showered with cold water, I had sex in a new way, I found a new way to love myself.. Whatever.. It is all about new, different, fun and creative! Allow me to flow through my day. I am pretty creative and fun when I just let me flow! :)

My Favorite Blissful Moments – Naturally waking up at 4:30, eating my dark chocolate, getting a massage, writing my dreams in my journal.

Appreciation for the Good, Great and Beautiful – I appreciate massages, I appreciate time to myself, I appreciate time with Brian, I appreciate my morning meditation practice,

Final thoughts of the day – 8 pm My heart fucking hurts!! It feels heavy and sad!! I am feeling the pain of ending an engagement this afternoon! What started out as an incredible day has turned into an amazing powerful and transformative heavy day! WOW! Ouch! What? I feel fuzzy in my head and in my heart! I hurt! I feel happy! I cried a lot today! And it brings tears to my eyes to think of my daily appreciation of Brian. I do appreciate him, deep, deep appreciation. I am no longer engaged and looking at ways to recreate my life…WOW!